This week is one I was dreading. We had a poorly child and after a 12 hour shift on Monday being up through the night with a screaming toddler was not a welcome experience. Luckily my amazing husband took over initially, particularly after having me throw the crackers Bea had asked for at her (not a moment I’m proud of). Fast forward a few hours and our roles had reversed and suddenly I had the patience of an angel (tag teaming works wonders, no point you both being awake all night). Upon waking Tuesday morning we discovered the blisters of hand, foot and mouth and suddenly my carefully made plans to get through the week disappeared. I was looking at long days of just my child and I. Thankfully the week was great and Beatrice and I had a wonderful time together and by the end of the week she was back to her old self and no longer needing quarantine, and thankfully this time I didn’t catch it either.
As a parent it’s easy to feel like you have to perfect or you’ll be judged. Well all I can say is who cares, as long as everyone is alive and happy do what you need to survive. This week we’ve watched lots of television, Bea has had days of mostly surviving on milk as eating hurt too much and upon getting her appetite back ate cheerios stood in her high chair with one foot on the table (I was not going to risk her tantruming and refusing to eat by telling her off).
And even when they aren’t poorly you won’t be perfect. I tried arts and crafts with Bea and it took every ounce of my strength to let her make her pig with his legs above his eyes, I made a putting hole for us to roll balls into and she just threw them around the room and today playing with her water table I found her playing with a dead fly (I thought I’d scooped them all out). We can’t all be Pinterest perfect and who would want to be. These little moments of imperfection I find are the ones that make the best memories. And your child will never care that it wasn’t exactly as you’d hoped. All they care is that you’re there. So give yourself a break. Forget who may be watching and judging and get lost in the moment. You won’t regret it.